sexta-feira, 21 de agosto de 2026

kiss sun farewell

 Varanda
See the last of the day
As if it were the very last of light
That existance would be swallowed

Never to be given up
Never to be renewed again
That morning would never swing again

That knives would find places at belts
The world betrayed
A blade away

A soft sky
Dressed in thicker cloud
The last beams paint 
the nature of a farewell sun

In light I was born and subjugated
In darkness I rise
The eyes of my soul restless up there
screaming at the evening birds retirement

Warning them
It would be the last time
Blick blink
Varanda


That search for joy

 Searching for joy
A kind less known
In little bundles
Very hidden

A part of me at the surface
ready to dive in
What do I treasure?
Following the boat across the water

The sun across the sky
Sky looks upon me
Catches me looking for the light
In daylight it seems more illusive still

Following the sense of goodness
It took me an eternity to learn
Searching for illusive joy
Sense of wonder

Disagreeing with the bay

 when i woke up
I was clinging to the side of the mountain
My head turned and looked out to sea
neither wind nor sun would speak to me

The rough stone of the coastline
is my conversation with the sea
Argument is tide
Rage and tempest

No harbor friendly to keel
No sandy flat beach welcomes
Just dark craggy edges
The long sharp saw

Softening the sea
Again and again

quinta-feira, 20 de agosto de 2026

Never be the wiser

 Her side of town, fancy feelings and things like her. And in her mind, things were suave.

That rope between her mind and her heart sometimes tying romance. In my head, I'd connected that rope. The one I'd climb down, got cut.

Now I'm swinging between the two ends, sometimes upside down, somewhere she can't even see, sometimes getting her choked up.

The deeper secret is the infatuation rolling around, tied inside a little chest in me, begging to get out and tie those two pieces of rope together.

Picture threads as mouths, lips to lips, tongue to tongue, swinging from breathless lungs. A fire that never can be quelled, burning the south side of her heart, smoking her out behind her eyes, keeping that steam engine on its tracks.

Long hours disconnected— I need jump-start cables. It all becomes another unrealistic fantasy. A drop of it infects my thoughts, seeking your reality through fantasy. I'll pretend it didn't come from you, like the rest of my delusions.

Lips to bouncing thighs, you ruse. I'll read you head to tippy toe; you read my behaviour so the yearn grows.

The dreams you sew so neatly never reach me. Your confession never realized.

Mine I've couriered from my heart to you through my eyes.

But if you ever really felt anything, I'd never be the wiser.

Effortless karma

 They didn't know how to say my name
The laugh goes inside and outside of them
Happy safe times are no longer there
Anything can happen

These two look at me and decide some narrative
But they have little idea about where or what is happening
happy safe times are no longer possible
It is not by my hand or desire

It is the natural conclusion of ignoring the truth
Wrapping action and routine in lies
Things don't go your way not because I say
I just sit parallel and it unfolds like that

Elbow grease. (Anxiety)

 Morning holds a cup of anxiety
Heart they say Jenny
Is just a liability
We attempt to teach it
But it teaches us

Morning holds a plate of indigestion
let it sit beside the sink
Then slide its contents into the trash
heart can be a guide but never a teacher
Only the divine and centered mind

Don't run from the dread
Dress yourself in those layers
Feel the fabric of them come undone
Until they are ripped up
Then use them to clean up the mess

Cauldron of gossip

 I told you that it wasn't me
Stubborness in your disbelief
It wasn't me back then
What has your insistance cost you
Present day a fortune

See through the gossip
But it's already true for you
I am whatever the consensus
if only you had taken caution
A cheap outlook

In the train of life
We cross and meet between carriages
You are adamant 
But not diamond
In error

time culminates into certain wells
Where fairness speaks
Take the time now to rue
To spend it in the skull and stew
Your mistake