Stubborn dignity

 She bounced down the road,
advancing up the far side.
Deliberately ignoring me,
Each cute stride up and down on her calves.

 Like the world existed only for her.
 Her long brown hair swung in unison
 with her jumpy strides,
 Her restless rhythm infects me,
 Her posture compound signaling stubborn dignity,

Shoulders back, chin just slightly raised.
Every movement was an elaborate snub,
Emphasis that I didn’t matter.
Her desire for adventure almost provokes curiosity,

like a duchess spilling her good self over the pavement

Confiscating the sun

 The rains are here again
Goddess doesn't play
The drops tell me 
in their slang and sway
To go back inside rethink
Forget about movement
have a warm drink

Sun has been confiscated
Goddess put it away
Dreary outside
Thick cloud harsh grey
Somewhere on her shelves
Behind her forbidden veil
Sits the sun, sassy Goddess and her day wall

As chuvas estão aqui de novo
A Deusa não brinca
As gotas me dizem
em sua gíria e balanço
Para voltar para dentro, repensar
Esquecer o movimento
Tomar uma bebida quente

O sol foi confiscado
A Deusa o guardou
Triste lá fora
Nuvem espessa, cinza dura
Em algum lugar em suas prateleiras
Atrás de seu véu proibido
Está o sol, a Deusa atrevida e sua parede de dias

The 3am animal

 The face looked at me in darkness

In it's mind it was deciding whether to bite me

Teeth were bared

eyes fierce

It came close to my face

Growling insanely in the blackness

It offered me dread

I couldn't feel it

It insisted

I couldn't feel the fear

I personally wanted to devour the animal

To tear it's throat

Ritually howl as it bled out on my bedroom floor

I would turn off my alarm heat the pan

skin the beast

early breakfast

The day rash

 Inhabits the skin
 It hurts and it bleeds
 It is open to infection

 It is marking me
 Blotchy, it slowly expands
 it itches and irritates

 It gets sticky
 In the morning
 Its moist in the evening

Bandages didn't work
It needs the open air
It needs to be seen

I see it scabs
hopeful dryness
Only for it to weep by dusk

Pain's meaning

Daily routines require many actions, some that you can feel unhappy about.
This unhappiness you silently equate with pain.
Your body requires consistant exercise, the less you do the more the body hurts and ailments spring up. When you exaggerate exercise, it's pain, or quite literally the pain of injury.

Your job is full of situations that create emotional pain and often severe bother. The kind of hurtfulness that if felt in a strong enough way will push you into acting in your interest. For example finding a new job, in the face of feeling completely outraged, then getting either a greater salary to compensate for the pain, or else more freedom.

Your interests. the things you have pledged yourself to study or spend time doing in your recreation time. These are usually an escape from your professional reality. Allowing yourself to turn off from the working hours.
Does everyone hate their job. Of course not. But a challenging career comes with pain, only an ignoramus believes otherwise. Job satisfaction usually comes when you have learned from your pain.


Home responsibility. Whatever role you play in a relationship, you will find pain within it. A strange denial might rise up within you, arguing that you feel no such pain. But pain is kind of like a garden, weeds can often be slight irritations you force yourself to ignore. But arguements that threaten your lifestyle can feel like established trees growing into your powerlines or breaking through a window during a storm. Forgive the romantic metaphors. If you ignore your pain, the consequence will be more pain!

Pain doesn't just have meaning, it is a great teacher. We grow wise from pain. Personal lessons affect us deeply in a world where people care little for the advice of others. Personal lessons, like those that sum up to "I'll read the fine print next time." or "I'll choose a more realistic investment." etc help us to grow in awareness. It is only when we ignore our pain that we inevitably repeat our mistakes.

Simple guide.

1. Pain can edit your life, being the reason you choose one action over another.
2. Pain teaches us where our limits are, this is information.
3. Pain forces awareness, comfort lulls people to sleep, pain awakens us.
4. Pain reminds us of other's suffering as well, when we don't know other's pain, we also cannot empathize with them. Being able to feel other's pain opens us up to their world. Beyond just information, you comprehend their visceral reality.
5. Pain becomes familiar and we can become more resilient in life, acquiring or achieving things through enduring those pains. Putting ourselves to the test.
6. Pain exposes false people or institutions, if you read the pain someone makes you feel with their dishonesty, you will discern it is not worth continuing with those people or places. pain comes before awareness.
7. Pain sharpens the intellect, it shows us how theory doesn't equal real life. When we try to apply things that don't work for us in real life, pain is the corrector, telling us that the theory isn't working. it has us examine what is not working.
8. Pain teaches us to be careful, whenever we are cooking or cleaning, the level of carefulness is often a result of small but succinct situations we hurt ourselves in, by accident. Our brain records and usually learns from these faux pas.
9. Pain creates the contrast for satisfaction, without the duality, there would be no meaning in the world. Simplicity of a painless world wouldn't make things more interesting, everything would become incredibly boring.
10. A valuable lesson in pain is when you reach the realization you cannot control everything inside your world. Things can hurt you and you cannot necessarily prevent them. However, you can gain a better feeling for the things you really control, and act on them. learning to accept those things that are completely out of your hands. 

In almost all of the examples pain is only the alarm. You must be aware to understand and learn from the implication of the pain. Those that believe life should be painless are feeling more pain than those who know the truth. Pain is meaning, pain is truth.

Sigils of 2026(definitions)

Manwa: Under the eye means the known, the possessed.

 Syg: Under the eye means the unknown, that which can be possessed.

BIP: Floating inevitability.(Floating not always in the right place at the right time, but can line up, can be reached.)

Mil-10: Progress of a dream(measured and structured)

Manwa is stability, sustainable growth. wholesomeness and logic.
Syg is the chaos of emotion and passion, feeding growth then starving it in absence.
Manwa is there to save us, when Syg has run out.
Your syg is an amalgamation of desires. Not only do the things you desire approach and distance themselves from you, your own intensity within each desire peaks and drops based on your mood and events that provoke your emotions in real life.
If you understand this entirely, you can also understand why most desires just stay desires.
Manwa is more sacred than Syg, but Syg distracts you and pulls you away from Manwa,

BIP and Mil-10 are like huge containers in your garage once full they get sent out like physical mail to declare certain things about your life. Status or figuritive champion podiums for the trophy giving ceremony. They are the long term goals that grow by your routines and systems.

Space and time

 All of your responsibilities
all of your desires
the wonderful life you build
See if we can build a place

A place for future meetings
A place for space and voice
in your haste and occupation
Recieve the great blessing

You steady man
People´s mistakes are not evil
There's a time for renewal
A great time in the future.