quinta-feira, 7 de maio de 2026

The coasts I impose on you

 There was nowhere to sit.
The tables echoed with the rules and etiquette.
And their particularities.
I looked around at satisfied people.
An ocean formed to my left.
A long strange beach formed out of grassy clay hills.

You used to see me climb.
Now I walk straight and aligned.
I walk right out ostracized.
And thank God for my solitary existence.
The straight line out of their town fences.
For some reason my place was elsewhere.

Their large churches yards were organized with tiny flags.
They cast a spell on the mouth to make it open and brag.
Grins were sold at discounts near the candyfloss machine.
The forbidden beach followed me like a tail, salty and clean.
Bothering the audience who were just trying to make sense of the scene.
Their tunnel minds like slaves, my power showed strange waves.

That dug up roadsides and broke into country with sand and saltwater.
The priest came forth and with his righteousness he caught it.
"Why do you turn our mountain village into some silly beach"
I kept walking out of the gate, unwilling to be beseeched.
The priest kicked at the crabs snapping at his frock.
I walked all the way into savory dusk fog.

My presence was the forming sand dune and sea,
overseeing the endless body of water of lunacy.
My eyes sped to the horizon like darts.
I brought the senseless into my heart.
Spread these crazy coasts across the land.
You are the priest, blind and branded.

I am the loose sand, slipping with the shifting prose,
Upturning beautiful white tables with the shores I grow.
Splitting the concrete below them, I mount I ride.
Inviting the sand and gargantuan tides,
looking into your eyes once to speculate on your confusion.
That my lack of meaning muddles your need for conclusion.

In a world that is slowly shaping up to be something,
born of my abstract whim.


Bringing food to the table

 I brought what I could to the eating.
Everyone sat down, the best morcels were shared.
I looked upon the pretty colors of food.
It all disappeared into their stomachs.

I imagine all those pretty colors merging.
Into a grand pit of digestion.
Colors overlapping and fading into one tone.
Stomach linings expanding and contracting.

Grocery bags filling and emptying.
Smiling wives taking items out.
Preparing something temporary,
to satisy the eyes and the appetite.

The throat is time,
food dives into the stomach.
After exploring the mouth.
Allowing the mouth to explore it.

I brought what I could to the eating tables.
White tops reflecting heaven.
Is heaven consumption?
And what is hell constipation or diarrhea?



quarta-feira, 6 de maio de 2026

I go to the mountain

 I want to know what is essential for life.
To be tested in a life of full.
On the mountain side where silence is the truest friend
Wrapping me in stillness in cold

granting me permission to reach myself again
By the exposed rocks I trace the summit 
The hardness of their surface
The coldness of it

My boot leaves holes and prints in the snow
I look aimless
Yet I know where my wandering legs go
even as the frosts press down

I want to know how the mountain talks
How it looks into me
What it learns from my presence
what I can learn from its

Afternoon tea at Yusupov's

 Do sit down my chap.
Take a piece of this Medovik cake.
Check out the view from here.
look at the birch totally stripped.

Look me in the eye Greg.
Take this chalice of pontic wine.
Tell us of your visions.
Your close call at Pokrovskoye.

 We'd like to offer you a piece of our wealth.
A piece of our land inheritance here.
If you'd just retire out here.
What do you say?

We'd hate to see misfortune befall you.
Especially after all you have given up.
Sometimes we have to make calculating decisions.
You have a holy a mission?

We might have to reconsider your right to live.
Can you see the Malaya Neva.
Imagine your corpse floating down there.
Separated from that powerful spirit.

No more sorcery!



Executive woman

 Always movement, never stays
The power of ten people
Keep going her mind says
And she moves through the world

She pours faith into her heart's cup
Her patience never dwindles
Crossed the sea to set herself up
No man can get in the middle

Her gargantuan drive
Robust form, beauty of woman
On God and ambition thrives
Higher than the common

Duchenne smile
Duchenne eyes touching the spirit of the onlooker
Strength unseeable
pleasant yet underneath disagreeable

terça-feira, 5 de maio de 2026

Ex sepulcro tuo me audi

You were buried under a manuka tree.

 Your grandchildren decorated the tree.

 with christmas ornaments.

 I guess they miss you madly.


 I still think of you,

 whenever I'm out there acquiring pieces for my future.

 Moving forward the way you used to.

 I only wanted to show you what kind of wealth and lifestyle i could carve out.


 Here I am still struggling to make you proud.

 But you are six feet under and never to rise or connect with me again.

 I saw you attempting to stay active before your death.

 The way life seemed to keep you limited to your spot.


 I would have lifted you up old man.

 I didn't want your money i wanted to make my own.

 I wanted to know how to take on the world the way you used to.

 When you were still in this world old pal.


 Ex sepulcro tuo me audi! Ut mundum superem.

 You made so much of it look simple.

 What was the point?

 I always wanted the truth.


 I didn't know the world was as painful as this.

 That I had to leave my home, my country,

 Because I felt welcome nowhere.

 Because I couldn't fit in anywhere. 


 So I want twice that which i can tangibly take!

 So whoever you helped create,

 that is who I have finally become.

 With twice your hunger. Ut mundum superem. Territory.

Rebound forwards

 I ran on these legs and strengthened these legs
Oversized sense of drive
An electricity moving through me

I recut the tread
Invested my heart and mind
Melted the ice with my hot flesh

I'll be fucked if I'm giving up any time soon
I can see it in the crystal the dullarfullr runes
Reinvigorate myself directly up to the sun

Through my conviction that this whole road unfolds toward one divine destiny

I poured the minerals into myself
killed my vices and strengthened my muscles
I dragged my youth back to me with a steel hook smelted through wisdom

Packed my essence with the essential clairvoyance every angel or demon...
emerging from the chasm of my own heart.