Felt like it

 Townsville, Australia, early afternoon. On wooden benches outside a nice cafe.


Both of us were seventeen
I went for your hand
instead of pulling back you left i there open
So my hand went into it

Told me about passions
we noted where they intersected and overlapped
It's quite a thing when the body vibrates with joy
But when the heart feels and the brain thinks it's just a...

Curse the hormones the forwardness fostering awkwardness
The sense that we can when we must go slow
Coffee arrived and conversation was a day
With it's shades and it's beams

You reached for my hand and I left it open
Then a young man came to the table
I thought he was the server
He sat not angry, not happy just present

I looked back at her her face neutral,
"Who is this?"
"It's my boyfriend." she said casually.
"Why did you call me here then, if you had a boyfriend?"

"Felt like it"

Parade ground address

 On flagpole arena were the gathering crowds
Their differences passing between them

Words rise as weapons once did
Arguments rubbed smooth by repetition

Swarms swallow every upchuck
The other person's idea into ear

Eyes move across the faces
searching for another interpretation

The words climb into cracks in convictions
out through the throat and into the voice

Straight into the waiting ears
of a multitude willing to listen

Wald tamer

 The leaves are september drowsy
the turn will come soon
The wald tamer come skipping
and in the small glade he is a believer

and his flute believes
his lungs believe
the trout believe
Even some of the humble villagers believe

and he didn't just get his inspiration from the buchen baumen
He got it from the roackfaces looming down from scowling alps
He got it from the sour turn to winter
and the sweetest blooms toward summer

Of the villages winter carvers
Who fashioned his flute from a choice piece of walnut
Yes he played in awe of their very creations
As the snow drifts and perpetual cloud put the valley in darkness

There were useful hands making things of worth
And thus the Wald taming flute man played in homage
And of children's games he played
And of village gossip he played 

Even of the stillness between equinoxes
when it was either too hot or too cold for living things to move

Flintsbach

 In the dell a small village
Untouched from the outside
That went on with it's way of life
When the rest of the world
ran wars of attrition and holocausts

Nestled between the foot hills
leading up to the alps
Every resident had their jobs
So everything would get done

Through the village ran a small creek
The rock bed solid no loose stones
Black rock inside and outside of the water
Summers cool, winters less freezing

Hidden from the world
Or ignored by it

Flintsbach lay flat beside the Inn, but the mountains began almost immediately, rising behind the farms as though the valley had made space for the tiny village, sheltering it from the necessary Hells of the continent.

The wall now painted over

 Certainty my uniform
Iron my flat hesitation
Buttons on every doubt 
The ones you dare not press

You'll never see me calculating
Never read words before they leave my mouth
My tone and vocabulary measured
Every response you surface memorized

Laugh when the joke has died down
Shake hands with your sense of humour
You won't read the truth on my face
Which version of myself I've spilled out

I'll never let your conclusion catch me
Everything is left open even when the door closes
Practising the predictable that gets me through
Another evening of being guessed about

I will turn my aloofness into anecdotes
Make every failure sound like an accident
Tell you I randomly ended up where I am
A piece of me wants to claim credit

I'll never let you see the machinery
Grinding beneath the plain surface
You will call it fitting in or camouflaging
Go on with that assumption

Au Pâturage

 The coffee maker au pâturage

Beyond the landfill twins were playing in the grass. Just in front of the tall pines. Where Mr Barker their father told them they couldn’t go.
Mr Barker had a huge amount of trash to clear from the bed of his truck.
So he said the twins could go down to the meadow beside the landfill.
Mr Barker knew they would need to use up some of their energy otherwise they’d easily get themselves into some trouble around the unsafe waste. He had just cut himself picking up some of the trash so he could get his truck in.
The twins could see the truck from where they were, but they couldn’t see their father.
Their giggling was constant and rose and fell like birdcalls.
In the middle of the small meadow there was a saw horse and on it sat a french coffee machine.
The coffee machine was working but both of the twins could see it wasn’t plugged in.
They slowly walked closer and closer until their giggling fell into silence.
They looked under the saw horse, a bald patch of earth surrounded by the over abundant super green grass surrounding it, hiding it almost.
The coffee machine gurgled, the smell of coffee became obvious.
Adernaid the boy said to his sister Sarah jar. “Sarah lets get back to the truck, this is weird.”
Sarah Jar looked at Adernaid, they both started walking back, feeling that void inside their throats and chest where their own giggling had been stolen by the strange discovery of the working coffee machine.

Sarah Jar pulled on Adernaid’s hand. And pointed up into the pines. A crow sat up in one of the branches barely visible, but Sarah caught it.
She was unsettled by being observed by the thing.
“No don’t.” Sarah said as Adernaid position himself to hurl a stone. He listened to her and dropped it. Perhaps if they hadn’t been twins, he could have thrown it. But the twin dynamic gave them both a kind of internal overlap of respect from one another.

Adernaid pulled Sarah Jar along, but took a rapid glance back at the coffee plunger bubbling away in the machine.
The crow crowed like a lunchbreak bell at a factory.
The kids walked faster.
They got to the truck and their father Old Mister Barker was brooming off the last of the dust fragments from the truck bed. He lifted the twins onto the back of the truck. Pointing out to the mountains and mountains of trash.
“Hey Dad we found a..” Adernaid was cut off by his sister.
“A crow” Sarah Jar said. In a tone that was both awkward and comic to their father.
He turned to both of them.
“Yes there are a lot of crows here. They also like to scavenge.”
He lifted each of them down and told them to get into the cab.
He jumped down, put the sides up and clicked them into place.
Got into the driver’s seat, turned on the radio and the ignition. Barely aware of the twin’s silence on the way home. Their chatter and giggling that would go on for days, was now completely silent. They just watched the road as if they were able to control the vehicle with their thoughts.
Every few minutes they would whisper to each other.
Mr Barker noticed that. Not the whispering, but how they did it. As if the information was dangerous.
He told himself it was jus another one of their games. As they had many and some did bamboozle him.
Something scratched the top of the windscreen on Mr barker’s side of the wind shield.
He looked in the rearview.
“There’s your crow!” Mr Barker said, bringing back a smile to his face.
On the twin’s side a streak of brown liquid resembling coffee leaked down.
Adernaid wanted to express it all, just about blurting it out. Sarah Jar put her forefinger to her lips in a gesture.
And all might have been forgotten, had Mister Barker not seen that gesture.

Bad social engineering

 Climbing up the flimsy structure
Loose frame, vines and rotten boards
Reach the top everything is unstable
Catch balance walk carefully

God cloudman the like
Said step by step son
Now you are here
just focus on those small movements

The human structrure is rotten boy
Stick to the vines and their aerial roots
So I listened to to God cloudman the like
Good advice from that Old fella

Maybe everything wouldn't fall through the way I thought
Cats and dogs and human pets clinging to the surface
looking for a sign that their fate would change