Flame boy hustler
Fancy crow's nest rooster
Triggerfinger cleaner
rigger ship redeemer
Bike swag peddler
Milk ration meddler
Cross bearing tickler
The short sole winker
Game story muddler
Fiddle tit booster
Lingering singer steamer
Reviving that rigg redeemer
I am ignorant of these fellows
Their titles, rankings bestowed
Their musings and gossip
Bluster they foster
They are just sailor's with stupid nicknames
I whistle into the corridor
a small face peaks out
the whistle echoes quickly
Then silence
The pitter patter won't come
Just those little eyes from the corner
It was time for the walk
To get out smell the neighborhood
But the dog wasn't moving
he just peeped around the corner
Something hanging from his mouth
I'd have to check it out
Oh this little scallywag
A sock
The one I'd been looking for all morning
In the sandpit alone
The old man said play with the other boys
Playing alone is dangerous
Safety in numbers
I spat
I had my little bulldozer in my small hands
Along the little mountain i formed with my hands
The other kids were hovering
I don't need them I said to myself
Then I saw how it all worked out
Sure enough life alone is harder
But I gained a few fans
I smoothed out the road
Imagined where the city would be
How it would move
how it would sparkle
Glad I did stay alone
Glad I didn't join one of the silly groups
These idiots hold me back
When im Solitary I am humble
Were you hurt by me?
Did I hurt you?
When I care.
But I can't talk.
Was there any space for me
To get in
When you thought about it
Considered this tiny possibility
When I walk toward you
Does your heart beat faster
Do you leave that stuff behind
Organize your thoughts?
I would always plan to get through to you
But those few times I tried
It just seemed impossible
I didn't know how to get in
And so like an ousider
I skim the periphery
Rejection is an energy
I read it on your beautiful skin
As you slowly forget
That I made you feel anything
The devil you don't know is waiting in the wet dressing gown
The water penetrated the towels and everything
The shower was out of control
It forces itself everywhere
There stands the devil neutral as 7
Evil as 3 as 6
The one you haven't met
calling you in at 9
toying with your mind
Trade the old one in it calls
There it stands like a tall clock
malicious like 16
That Devil unknown
incurring all sorts of chaos
creating a life of mayhem
You think I don't know what yall say
It all gets to me eventually at it's height
I hear the words that come out of anxious mouths
And my advice is to shut it and be absent from my sight
Look we sit here talking like some cheap ploy
This man ahead of me is a proper spoilt boy
He turns and tries to make conversation
I tell him to shut up and fuck off
He has little to nothing to offer
He speaks as if speaking itself was the point
As if friendliness a fine art yet he's grease
He is thickly obvious and deseperate to please
He had offered nothing yet stood telling me
His only actions showed him to be false
Along these streets, in this reality
This boy man with a weak pulse
He is young and naive
He begs to be recognized
he does nothing for this place
And he expects to get something in exchange
For his annoying presence
I need him to know that I would reward him hefty
If he just stayed out of my business
be absent from my sight
My hands go up to touch the water as it comes down from the shower head
tears from a lifetime. That won't clean me.
The water comes out reaches the towels
It soaks them all
And wets the floor
The house will remain damp
My hands go up to adjust the jets
But it won't be adjusted
So I sit in the shower well
and let it all get wet
I cry for a decade
I let go of who I was
There is nil inside
Nil outside
There are only tears
albeit rolling slowly
Not like the jets of the shower
The bathroom is flooded
I have been performing
My value is nil and null
I was sure I was becoming something
I was certain I'd be someone
In the light of the day
I am exhaustion, tears and nothing more than these
