Self Old Self Young

Self old= I told myself- There are so many things you need to improve on. It's been so long. where are you feeling most of your pain.
Self young= I'm not in pain.
Old -Then why are my memories so full of pain.
Young- Because you couldn't stand yourself.
Old- Why?
Young- You wanted to be good at everything, I wasn't ready.
Old- But that was you too, wasn't it?
Young- Only the part that eventually became you. The piece that no longer fits.
Old- So what is your current anxiety.
Young- You know what it is don't make me say it.
Old- Oh yeah then. Can I give you the guide then?
Young- You know I'll probably keep doing whatever feels right.
Old- Sure, we still do that sometimes.
Young- Okay say it.
Old- Cut all your peers off. Focus on clean friends, only one or two, tolerate their stupid jokes. Learn from them. Stay at your focus- writing and languages. Reading and maybe law. Stay away from drinking and smoking you will find out the only people who do that type thing arrive way later.
Young- what do you mean arrive?
Old- Get to your position of growth.
Young- Why is that important?
Old- Because you can stop trying and start doing. It works out real well. things become natural. Those jarring anxieties dissolve almost completely.
Young- Impossible!
Old- Certainly not impossible, as soon as you stop playing their game and start playing your own one, you will build mastery and you will know who you are.