Kingdom within

 Leave attachment
feel now 
I will now
 let go

 Feel my heart unclench
I the healthy child,
but held onto things. 
I let go.

Forgive the ones who hurt me
this extra energy
 administrate my own complex life
 it is not to be simple

 Love in a way that is mine to be.
 Forgive my assumptions
 build my patience and faith
give me permission 

 I open my hand
 let go of attachment
 you have graced me,
 if you see me fall- let me fall

 but give me a soft landing lord
 despite the hundred mishaps
 and bad aims and intentional bad desires
 oh bring me to myself

i will sit before me
 and pledge to let go of my attachments
 knowing tomorrow they will be at my door raving and merciless
  bless you because I know, no part of me or my existence is in vain

 otherwise I wouldn't be happy,
 and my truth is most days for most of the time,
 I enjoy and love this life fully
 reflect this joy back to me again

 like my child self smiling
 at my adult one,
 tragically unaware of what will befall him
 over the years

 but blissfully blessed
 with the flow and deeper wit of the universe.
 yes as the unpredictable wind or flash flood,
 let these good things come to pass

 let my doubt and lethargy dissolve
 with anything else toxic within
 If i could serve God and he wants in,
 he wants vitality for this adventure,

 he wants to stamp my passport for another 45 years of mischief
 come I am open.
 Come in the name of all that is holy
 let me do good work, 

 not just celebrate my own accolades.