segunda-feira, 6 de abril de 2026

spills and stains

 The sofa will eventually recieve the stain
The milkshake will spill
There is new fabric its begging
It's a satisfying energy
Like my smile

I lengthened it like a summer day
To feel good about the things I have
The things I don't
And the things that will eventually be mine

The plate is warm and the food ready
sitting at the table I left the salt and pepper
The juice fell over spilled out
It was waiting for that to happen

You are a handful and a mouthful
The one day that you forget the apron
The sauce splashes and it's in there
 unwashable The perfect imperfection

You can clean but it will always be marked
Like an early trauma on the soul of today
That piece of uneaten food on your plate
That will prevent your dessert


The shade of the gas station

 The cypresses touch the petrol station roof.
Using it for support and darkening that corner where no cars park.

Routine is juice, gas, gasoline.

The commuter pulls in with his new flash car, cellphone to ear.
Hand a few hertz from shaking on the steering wheel.

His tyre hits the reservoir lid as if he was blind.
His window comes down in a rush to call an attendent.

The pavement is a finished task like a schedule filled out.

The attendent lazily makes his way from the shade of the cypresses
Toward the neurotic man who is probably late for a life and death stakes situation

The road is full of potholes and cracks like the man's nerves.

-What can i get for you?
-Gasoline and quick, I'm late for a meeting.

The early morning cloud accumulates it threatens to rain
Not on the attendant, but on the rushing man.

-Cash or card?
-Card, quickly!!!

The transaction happens quickly the man pushing the card machine away.
Starting engine, revving and speeding out of the gas station.

The old man walking his dog on the street nodded to the attendant.
-You are a patient one, good on you.

But even so, the attendent lowered his head and made his way back to the plastic seat,
In the shade of cypresses.

He watched his shoes step as he hung his head, heard the rev of the crazy man.
His next step encountered the line of shade on the petrol station forecourt.

He heard a screech and then a deafening crash.
He looked around but all he could see was the old man with his little dog.

-Never be in such a rush that it takes living life away from you.
 The old man said.
The young attendant looked down at his shoes. 

In the young man's mind all he could think about was the fact he needed a new pair of shoes.
And a car like that of the rude man who had just passed through.
He was probably somewhere important by now. While the young man was stuck pumping gas.
These thoughts filled the young man with dismay. Even as the abrupt sound of the ambulance came screeching out of nowhere.


What awaits

The house needs building
Petrol stations await cars to fill
streets shoes and trainers
My ears you voice

The beach awaits the tide
the weight awaits my hand
The sun awaits my skin
The universe my words

my eyes, you
My skin, yours

domingo, 5 de abril de 2026

I was up against a gray silence

 So I breathed out,
the clouds were pushed.
Am I sincere?
Streets need paint-

I sneeze and color rouses itself.
Every surface now has something vibrant.
I look down at me god he's goofing off.
I said pay attention it's all gray out here.

But my dog stayed all quiet.
The road was carved out dinosaur bones.
I did my best to flatten them out with my mood.
And if I had had a cigarette right there and then.

 That would be the moment to spark it and breathe out,
creating some cloud for the oncoming front.
Silence echoed all over like a flood of ear glue.
So I conjured thunder to clear it all up.



Human drops

 There they go human beings leaking out away from the horizon.
Practicing their lives.
rehearsing future victories.

They go attempting to hold the road.
As traffic keeps pace.
Sun so timid to rise.
But shows it's first signs.

The flow of people wishing for something bigger.
Bigger than themselves in that proud impossibility.
Eyes judge and voices accuse.

Legs brace as feet hit the pavement.
thye move like drops of water down a glass window.
With the sun shining in, training to be something.

Dissimilitude of my creative epitome

 I am clothed
yet I feel undressed
I have so many choices
But I feel powerless

I have acquired stamina in my hustle
however I am exhausted
I have grown new muscle
Though I feel weak

When will it be my time
The the crust of glory becomes something I myself devour
my patience is tested
Because I cannot wait for this hour

I am pure creativity
But my mind is blank
My libido pulses with sensitivity
But I feel impotent

What is this cruel trickery devised from where the unseen stare
Stirring reality and adulterating it's incgredients with waking nightmares
Past rising to consume me and once again I smash it all into tiny shards
Thus becoming whole, visionary, passionate and hard!


The supply room at school

 School was talking fantasy film
Abandoned class room now for stock
Young girls with cute lisps
carried away with details

curly headed consciencious nerd
Who indulged the lisped young girl
Organizing material for the next exhibition
Then embracing in the empty corridor 

School was creating or building an image
then throwing it away
as if it were never you
As if you were above it

School was long winded opinions on cult classics
as cut into acres of paper
sit by and study the periodic table
Big empty rooms

Handfuls of empathy
Constant change silly confessions
That sent the struggling teen soul nosediving
speculating on teacher's past times

prospecting toward the forbidden
with wiggle room to deny everything later
To offer excuses by feigning naivety
weaving those very first webs of deception