terça-feira, 2 de setembro de 2025

I squeezed in a trip to Unde Roven

 I was unpacking my bags
It had been a trip underneath a refridgerator
Under an oven with less than a centimeter 
between the floor and it's bottom

That's where I spent my vacation
atleast it was warm even if it was narrow
I didn't quite fit in and ended up feeling squashed
I got back and took my bags upstairs

I unpacked my big suitcase
On the second story of my box I mean my dream
No, I mean my house this big old long house
I was a box within a box within a box

everything inside was mine so tightly packed
without a voice but still screaming to get out
to untidy the floor with an odd mix of clean and dirty
was that really me clean and dirty? really?

had I done a good job job of hiding it?
Probably not, a few teenage cockroaches snobbed me
from those few days I spent under the oven
jeering at my tight clothes and suitcase

But they were free to forage high class crumbs
To mock me and the queues of ants right next to me
oh what a relief to be back home again as a rustic human
wobbly in ambition, competence and the ability to unpack


Tagarel

 The parrot echoing it's cackle from upon the power line
Declaring it's presence bombastically to the whole street
It seemed to be really saying something, not just greeting
talking about the houses and how they were different from the forest

Its beady eyes and hooked beak were as sarcastic as it's cackle and screech
Never before was there such a conceited animal bragging and preaching
of it's miraculous and god given ability to embrace the air and fly
They always came in couples, preening one another tenderly and sly

The parrot clicked and squeaked as if it were a machine
in to monitor the surroundings and disapprove of them

segunda-feira, 1 de setembro de 2025

Hazel green

 That pale green that gets lit up by the electric soul somewhere closer to that sweet pumping heart
two eyes that stirred with that light a certain curiosity and potential to focus in
The tanned body that continued for the rest of her dulce de leche to observe
I purposely gaze off in the other direction as it all pulls me in

All of us drag some quality along with us from when we were children
a certain pronunciation of a word or strange way of sitting or walking
arousing details that tell a story that mesmerizes people like me
who lose that internal fight between goodness and curiosity

Hopefulness and disappointment imagine these as simple currencies
traded between men and women who can't front up to their feelings
Burning off the top layers of their impulse only to have them regrow 
starving the strange desire only to have it illuminate like her eyes


Grandson entitled grandson

 Grandson took up an apartment in the city
A friend of a cousin letted it to him unwittingly
He would go from his mummy to becoming a student
The peak of his traits most impulsive and imprudent 

he couldn't cook he wouldn't even clean
The volume of his music was loud and mean
The complaints mounted up patience wore thin
But grandson wouldn't change he just grinned

Grandson learned how he was special me me me
gifts and treats and total absence of responsibility
In his mind he had done no wrong he had no clue
even as he was reminded by his much older nephew

Grandson had been spoiled for years more than a few
He told the owner of the house and any who'd listen
to fuck themselves he would never wash dishes
he was a friendly lad and thought himself slick

So he lost the deposit on the place, some had predicted
His eyes wouldn't agree to the words he read... " you are evicted"



What a bully that Loquat tree is

The morning was mildly windy yet very sunny and bright. A young man in his late teens had just rode up quite a steep incline to the park. His face was tensed as he finished those last rotations of the pedals. He didn't bother stopping at the intersection and continued to ride directly across the road to the park. To his delight the twelve foot high loquat tree had ripe fruit(nespera in Brazil). His face went from a burdened tenseness to beaming with hope, he leaned his bike on one side of the tree, and walked around to the other.  
 
He reached up and grabbed the branch with bracts of yellow fat loquat plums. He had to stretch his whole body upward as far as it would go from tip toes to extended shoulder joints. Now he would get his reward. He had made the timely and lucky discovery of the tree before anyone else.
Something stung the ball of his foot. The open flip flop sandle was of course exposed. Perhaps an ant, not the small harmless ones, no, the tropical ones closer to the size of a spider with jaws the size of their own body. Maybe it was a scorpion!
The branch he was holding down with his left hand shot out, flicking upward at an accelerating speed.
The side of the branch was moving faster than his instinct to avoid it.
It came up hitting him with an abrupt yet subtle bash, then badly scratched the side of his face as it slid back to it's original upward position.

He momentarily held his stinging face. He cursed out loud, then stopped suddenly putting his hand down from his cheek. Then as if a wasp had stung him on his behind, rose stiftly and turned in panic, surveying the park around him, checking to see if there were any witnesses to what he possibly deemed a rather shameful little attempt to get fruit that turned into a spectacled faux pas.
There was an older man and his daughter walking their dog, infact too close to have missed the unfortunate occurrence. He felt his face redden despite his brain's consent. The daughter hid her smirk and pretended to be talking to her dog. Her father looked directly at the young man, not with derision but with an acknowledgement that he had seen it. They neutrality of the father's face was unnerving. was this a man who could be laughing on the inside?

The older man and his daughter walked out of sight. The young man swung his arm angrily toward the tree like an mma fighter several times. Purposely not hitting it. As if to affirm he could control something even if it wasn't the tree branch. But his face didn't lose that look of complaint. Like he had been wronged by something ill-intentioned. His theatrics were more to relieve the anguish of looking like a clown infront of strangers. People he hadn't met and perhaps would never see again in his life. He walked his bike to a little alley next to the construction site. That day as he hauled sand, stones and cement he wondered if the daughter of the man had infact been smirking.
That the look of acknowledgement on the father's face wasn't simply that it had taken place, but as an admission that his daughter had found it excrutiatingly hilarious and that they would probably keep it in the laughing bank for weeks to come. loquats never seemed to taste the same after that.


domingo, 31 de agosto de 2025

The apple doesn't fall it bounces

 Her parents divorced when she was just a two years old
Her mother a force of fury and her father a sarcastic soul
And she just a big open sponge for the world absorbing it all
So no one really understood her constant state of being apalled

she became impulsive and sometimes spat on caution
Infatuated young and managed to hide the abortion
Noone knew they all just assumed she was getting fat
She would transform from hard boot to soft mat

Then came the time to grow the ideal family
it broke before it could start in anger and agony
Lives left with neither full father nor mother are needy
Each temporary fling dysfunctional, destructive and seedy

As you look for signs of God

 Many times in your life
Help and support is absent
Most will lose all faith
and go clumsy and faithless

Some of you will pray more
dilluting the sacred
try to connect that line again
To your version of God

You make so much noise
as you look for God
have you forgotten the value of silence
The holiness in the absence of noise

You there who seek real God here on earth
You spend months waiting then give up on it and sour
have you forgotten the value of action, indeed true evidence of faith
So act in silence and stack your trash excuses where compost is made.

Life is dirty and unfair
Faith is clean and nourishing