Certainty my uniform
Iron my flat hesitation
Buttons on every doubt
The ones you dare not press
You'll never see me calculating
Never read words before they leave my mouth
My tone and vocabulary measured
Every response you surface memorized
Laugh when the joke has died down
Shake hands with your sense of humour
You won't read the truth on my face
Which version of myself I've spilled out
I'll never let your conclusion catch me
Everything is left open even when the door closes
Practising the predictable that gets me through
Another evening of being guessed about
I will turn my aloofness into anecdotes
Make every failure sound like an accident
Tell you I randomly ended up where I am
A piece of me want sto claim credit
I'll never let you see the machinery
Grinding beneath the plain surface
You will call it fitting in or camouflaging
Go on with that assumption