domingo, 26 de fevereiro de 2023

Fuel for thought

 For a real warrior must break himself down
as does an elaborate weapon
Our existence is hindered by dragons

My courage interrupted
The piece of him god flung back to me
to help me conquer the world with
The eyes confused by a world
That transformed further away from what it had made him|

joints and bones felt hell inside them
the mind that insane drop pushing us on
that eye my father gave me
fate the long tailed dragon
savor it's scales wake from a death

sever it's lungs and make it's corpse
a home a drop in the ocean
In the accumulated fuel
That awaits a flame and burst

Mortal rehearsal

 Flesh on earth
a human grunt
with every window out into it
a small puddle of consciousness

wind and sun on the tongue
pulsating temple
for there I pray
worshipping a bridge existence

I could feel my hands
and so grasped outwardly to the air
as if to greet it
treeleaves even

sweat sneaked across my brow
letting itself morph into the air
laughing and dancing in the sunlight
heat a language

Saliva churning in the mouth
the gut provoked
hunger rises and drives that insane drop
thoughts of power

the road bare and grey
each muscle awake
the face of the land feels my steps grinning upward
the centre of hell cooking it into caramel


Come inside

 The nightclub changes every weekend
dumbfounded excitement chasers buy the weekend
offer the cheap fun and euphoria thick as blood
The lights and posters trade places
the feeling desire pulse in every local person

the facade lit up neon with eye spice
holiday makers gave into temptation
throwing themselves at the big block building
where owners would come and go more frequently
overly satisfied on saturday

diminished and subdued by the bankruptcy and hopelessness
of narcotic excesses
Back to the club to clean up, the dirty mess
The mind also soiled
instinct put the club back on the market
In a few days it would be sold

drink and snought
widen that smile
That survived as a frown
from within some greyish white office
clean yet somehow dirty

hobbling home after the club had had it's way
a beautiful inversion emerging
where you the poor soul looking for a kick
swallow the juice and become the target
Of one boot falling into you at high velocity

kicking the change and sense out of you
until you are broke

quarta-feira, 22 de fevereiro de 2023

Validation on paper

 park your car
it is 30 minutes and a few other rules away
from being confiscated
Uncertain invitation

Your car is safe here for 30 minutes
Can we interrupt your life
Leave a gram of extremely high quality uncertainty
with a street value of disappointment

Your existence needs the bland spread of paperwork
bureaucracy to spice patience
You can park but you'll need your little ticket
you'll need your ticket approved

A solid validation
in these untamed cities
knitted together with worthless documents
That seem to be randomly demanded

The inconvenience as elegant as the fine print

From within the land

 On a map the imagination is paralyzed
the dirt and rock of the land is it's logic
the plants, trees and forests emotion
conversation with the sky long wet interactions

long grass had only one ambition
to cover the for sale sign
eating it up so no potential owner
could put it all out of place

Deep within this land
the muscle as rock the blood lava

On a map you wouldn't be able to see the land
It's only a kind of chart
A silly theory
the wind and rivers move

Deep underneath
the sunless soils
is a longing for root tips
to extract the mineral and damp excess


terça-feira, 21 de fevereiro de 2023

promotion

 who have you become
a name a role an identity
which you glue into yourself
envelop yourself into

under the scrutiny of half a dozen others
ears for tones and adjectives
cutting briefly at plans and strategies
then opening again for argument


From inside a house

 Buildings age from within and without
chaos springs up in the weather
wallets and expensive clothing goes into the trash
sleep and bathrooms

Generations of the tall
suddenly becoming their parents
heads and necks toward ceilings
expectant ambitions waiting like a plant about to flower

a ship like a family has an anchor and a sail
chambers for reflection or distraction
Or complete avoidance to the whirring demands
of a city that exists to be worshipped

colorful clothes shed like skin
words form conversations
and then into long dialogues
life lessons from parent to child 

segunda-feira, 20 de fevereiro de 2023

Passing thought

 The wind that stirred the conscience
The skull a house
many within lodging there
As simple ideas

Each idea a child
wanting to develop and mature
the many rooms each a lobe
inside the cranium

Is the price of life death?
the price of day night?
Is there a currency
to life


Scraps fall from the banquet

That crumb falls into the open mouth and the flavor opens up
like a battle front 
The taste of utopia, raising fists and wearing socialist slogans
Oaths against self interest noble lips should be commended

Then you were promoted
Your speeches to me about a world for the needy
disappeared like a thirst satiated
Your accusations toward me as a capitalist pig that were so fitting
Now as dried up as a mormon frown over the puddle in salt lake city

You were passed the food to distribute
putting your righteous  talk into walk for your attributes
Yet you gathered it all for a poxy dinner party
where guests wore their best and left the table before farting


Settling into the rank and file of the unquestioning herd
Paygrade fries your sanctomony pink
your vote changed like a reptile's wink
settling in like a strip of dead flesh so damn vile
between the lips of a crocodile's smile

From hippy to yuppy
in such a hurry
all day yips in a tight flurry
values wrapped and entombed fruitless mummies
 
The fork of politics crashes onto the plate that gleams
scraping the porcelain evoking the micro scream
Missing the meat and potatoes
The table mute anticipatory

cream faces almost droop
luxury stole their substance
lined grins still hardening into granite
that fat must bulge

the teaspoon drummed on the wine glass
A shrill alarm
dessert had not yet reached the realm of consumption
banging into existance a lull and microsecond of attention

surgeons had worked hard on the sugar craving flesh
the human system a large banquet table fully laiden
the sculpted beauty and distilled vanity
Pepertuates itself like the blind religions

the existence of a deep greed
The seeds of it continue to germinate 
in the hearts of the noble feigning poor
Their virtuous facade not hiding their loathsome vices

The shame of life is a stainglass window
the light shines through contaminating the interior
with the set of lies you have painted yourself outwardly with
Your lack of purpose or over reaching ambition 

domingo, 19 de fevereiro de 2023

The dark den of the bay

 the bay seemed empty vast
subtropical thickleafed trees hugged the water
No moon to light up the surface
Sky at its last tone into full darkness

worried eyes
he let his hair grow long and low
Boats and ships avoided it
burning up in daylight
daylight a decade ago

red ashamed face
looking up questionung the sky where the moon was
Like the birthday boy minus his guests
waves came in just to float those dead leaves up to the shore

Instead of washing up on the narrow powdery sanded margins
they locked into the remaining loose leaves
dragging them in like desperate mother's their children
 at a black friday liquidation

they were his hands and his mind
looking to please and grasp as many friends as possible
dirty rusty leaves brined up real nice in the dark empty depths
of a moonless bay these leaves scraping against the coral of envy

the world just a trillion images for a voyeur who longs to reflect months on each
Yet wants to see each one of those trillion hungrily anticipating the next ones
unable to pull his cave water gaze from the first million
Just to feel the first brushstrokes of death appearing in his own portrait.

each image a rusty briney leaf, multicolored through sickness not seasons
through envy and dead rainbows of a once overvigourous youth
springing up new fountains of envy severed arteries of nostalgic pangs
spraying out into the inky black bay 

sexta-feira, 17 de fevereiro de 2023

The conforming body of chums

 That Ethan
if blondness made a joke forgot the punchline
and ran headlong into a cluster of overgrown pigeons
Yes Ethan...

Little Ben's gang
secretive in bringing the dumbfounded hormones
that were friends together to talk and walk the dim corridors 
wielding sharp sarcasm and a subtle grin like a cocky sniper

Timberlee perfectum in perfection's grace
even the tone of voice required a facial a plus from the interlocutor
he just didn't have time nor energy to spell it out to the ambling vegetables
that were his underling peers. A golden child that inspired glee.

Benji aspiring cortona
Curly hair and dawson's creek
Benji the other golden boy academic and athletic
faculty fantasies boggling away

stephan midterm quasi latin
From the catholic east
hip lanky bronx like a funny kid
pinkish olive skin and an accusatory scowl
suddenly switching back into unbounded amiability

Conforming to one another
conforming to the teacher
to the faculty






The web of appearance(the inner false friend)

 Look through your things
false friends need cigarettes
There's a party on the civilized edge of town
kids who know jokes are going

pick up a check
study the amount
decide if you are going to cash it
a tunic of a person

I need cigarettes cigarettes
False friends beg for the moment
where betrayal changes the face
like an orgasm like a nice high ascending

pick out the right clothes
concert platforms all over town
each one calling out for attention
we try to impress those other funny kids

yet we forget the game has already started
and they are infront
screaming in taunting tones for us to catch up
just to buy them cigarettes and massage egos

the house is old wood
dry and lifeless
I can't find my clothes here
I can't pick anything out

My friend is already finished
But I am not him
he seems to be perfectly addicted
to these systems of satisfaction

dusk down now a clammy invitation
this false friend a kilometer ahead
in fine robes and deriding well repeated meme expressions
calling back like a child at the sea

A party across the other side of town
He almost felt
but squashed emotion
first by his own will, but then by alcohol and cigarettes

what a wild time
still lost in and out of draws and clothes
in the meaningless details
when we should be on the bus by now

False friends manifest and accumulate
A storm over a mockery of dusk
a mouth into smile
a wound opening

guts of identity
a well crafted insult
that spins so fast
sanding back polite exteriors just to expose the hibernating spider

segunda-feira, 6 de fevereiro de 2023

Olethros road

 Caldwell sighed as he saw the missile impact over wilmington. It was early september.
It wasn't a huge nuke, it was more like a tactical one. The burst of light was short and terrifying. The blast and abrasive well of shattering and ripping. He dived on his sofa and turned it over himself, a few seconds before the explosion burst in through the window pounded the opposing wall with debris as if shrapnel and left the room burning at a cozy 120 degrees celcius. 
Caldwell tried not to breathe as oxygen was replaced with smoke and fumes.
Wilmington was a small city in North Carolina. Caldwell imagined if this was the response from the enemy powers on such a small town like Wilmington, what had happened to the rest?
What must have happened to New York, Boston, Atlanta?

Caldwell packed his bag with tins and bottles of water, and started his journey out of the city. His first stop was to his friend James house, he found him unconscious on the floor. His wife and son were dead in the back yard completely blackened from the initial blast wave. But his daughter Anne was shaking James as if to try to wake him up. Anne was only 8 and seemed a slight girl. Caldwell picked him up and comforted Anne who started screaming.

He got both of them in the car and continued driving out of the city. He stopped by a gunshop just outside the city limits, the front of the shop was blackened inside some of the ammunition had exploded. but he was able to get 4 kevlar vests, 2 sterling smg machine guns, a Howa hunting rifle and hundreds of rounds of ammunition for both. He picked up a very ugly Taurus G2C pistol. 

Caldwell calmed Anne as James started to come to in the back seat.
The sun was setting on perhaps the worst day in human history, as James sat up and both Anne and James looked at the smoking city on the horizon they were leaving behind.
James directed Caldwell to a farm surrounded by high fences and patchy forest.
It was abandoned so they knew they would be able to use it for survival accomodation as things hopefully one day came back to normal.

Five weeks past and Anne learned how to shoot rabbits with hunting rifle albeit with a lot of support for the kickback was rough on her shoulder. James and Caldwell built traps and reinforcing barbed wire creating a kind of compound within. They planted some greens and harvested some of the local corn crop. Taught Anne to look after the chicken coop. And life went on.

After the fifth week there was a strong subtropical like storm that ran through the region. A raiding party turned up on the rural road, and was using the storm to mask their arrival and scope out the nearby farms. they had spotted the reinforced fences and candle lights coming from the kitchen inside. There were six men all armed with assault rifles and all of them were completely motivated to murder anyone on the farm and claim all supplies for their own, whatever it took.

The commotion happened when one of the raiders inevitably fell into one of the many traps that had been set up severing a vein in his foot as he stepped right into a shallow hole vested with rusty sharpened metal at its base. The man screamed and did a better job than an alarm would have.
Anne was placed in the attic with a small open window opening onto the flank of the house. she didn't look very excited at the thought of having to kill a man. But the last few weeks conversation had been orbiting around the fact that this day would come, she sat anxiously with the hunting rifle and started testing the sight in the dim light surrounding the house.

Caldwell jumped into a ditch near where the other raiders were still attempting to enter, the chaos of moving their friend back to the pick up truck, and the insistance that the man be quiet was more than enough distraction for both Caldwell and James to position themselves. Firstly Caldwell opened up on the raiders as they cut through the last wires of the fence, He emptied the whole clip onto the 3 visible men hitting them all over but only mortally wounding one. Two of the other raiders had broken through 50 meters away near some trees where James was hiding. James opened up on one with a short burst to the chest killing him instantly and using the short awkward butt of the smg on the side of the head of the other men.

The next day was one of sorrow, four dead bodies, one prisoner but alas the man with the injured foot had escaped, which meant they would be visited again.
The prisoner Paul was younger, about 18, for that reason James had not openly shot him to death. They tied him up but helped him recover and fed him. talked about the state of things, and didn't really blame him for the situation hed found himself in.
Anne learned more and more about shooting and was now walking around armed with the pistol.
They had created booby traps and sound traps to make sure when the visit was to happen, they would be able to respond appropriately.

Except it didn't happen, whoever was behind the raiders outfit seemed to have forgotten about Caldwell James and Anne. Though the three of them drilled every morning just in case and did perimeter checks inside and outside of their boundary fences.
Three weeks later in the dead of the night The raiders returned. By now ex raider Paul their captive had been helping the group make conserves and peel corn and potatoes, but at night they still locked him up. James was responsible for him. They treated him very well and improved his quarters in the basement which was the only area within the house that could be locked and used as a cell.
The raiders broke into the compound by exploding a bucket full of fertilizer gunpowder and a grenade, inside it was steel knives and forks which shattered into shrapnel some of it hitting the house and setting off all of the traps in the vicinity.

Caldwell was the first to the window, but he couldn't see anything except the burning remains of the security fence. He ran outside with his smg at his hip, ready to spray the new space where the fence used to be. He had no chance, one of the raiders hit his leg severing a small piece of his calf with a rifle bullet about 30 meters off. Caldwell screamed out and tried to hold himself up against the door. James came and carried him inside narrowly escaping a second shot that would have hit him in the upper body. James took him into the basement with Paul who looked concerned. Caldwell kept the pistol. James went back up to the main door, Anne was at the top of stairs training the sight from the hunting rifle. A flash grenade went off as James approached the open front door, blinding him pretty well. James backed down to the stairwell, three raiders entered, Anne wasn't seen but the raiders saw exactly where James had gone, Paul helped James into the basement a second later the raiders came racing down the basement stairs firing. Caldwell stumbled toward the door and emptied all fifteen bullets into the door ajar and the racket of boots thumping down toward the basement. Two of the raiders fell down the third opened up with Ar15 Hitting cladwell's wrist and sending Paul and James diving for cover in a corner. James' dropped his Smg and felt like the day was lost.

Paul grabbed up the smg awkwardly but in enough time to aim it toward the door and shoot 4 rounds into the entering raider two shots on a bullet proof vest, one missing completely and one hitting his neck and draining him of blood in seconds. Five more raiders approached. Anne was ready and shot into the middle of them killing one of them and wounding two others, the uninjured raiders turned and ran. James and Paul both brandishing smgs now chased them down and killed both of them. They found the raiders vehicle and brought in another 2 assault rifles, a shotgun, 3 handguns and 2 uzis.
Caldwell had most a lot of blood now. Paul seemed trustworthy though now, which meant James and Anne could focus on treating Caldwell's wounds.

One week later, The group became tighter and decided to start to make trips into town, usually just James and Paul. Their mission was to locate the old raiding HQ and find more supplies.
 

The ascendence

 I will tell you a story about ascendance
its a beautiful thing 
We run toward the bright lights of sucess
just to stop and wince

Making sure it is infact success
and not some will o wisp
swamp like failure behind it
that we could be without

Tell you about the neon japanese utopia
A sight I saw of the future when I was a meager child
Divine opulance over a city graced with hyper commerce
a place for every experience every product

A model for every megalopolis
where a trillion souls exhange noise light and currency
to give them a tiny sip of the liquid opiate
of self discovery

Let me tell you about the incredible ladder
Every rung a transition
an adopted personality that clings adapts
and never peels off later

Simple beings we are
chasing the next level even after a million falls
infinite attempts mouthfulls of it
sanding back the flab

Settling us into the rocket with a trajectory 
toward the shiniest star         

quinta-feira, 2 de fevereiro de 2023

the outsider

 the edge of space
quite enthralling
crowded alien colonies

Unknown reaches
Of a self unrecognized
The worshipped nothingness

walking upside down on the planet
dizziness overwhelming
sympathetic skies

The purpose of a mouth 
is to talk
to eat

But what of the collective rest of you
Out of the space dust and junk
what are you