Keith

 Keith was in his office, the forced laugh echoed down the corridor. It was an out of tune laugh loud and boyish. He was watching the worst porn again.
He pulled little Bill and I in to show us. Little Bill was outraged because he was mormon. He told the boss to never show him such a thing again. I watched out of curiosity a woman doing something unmentionable with eels. I felt sorry for Keith.
His laugh went neutral as if he was unsure if he should have showed us. I thought to myself, Is this what this guy sits here doing all day. Is this what becomes of the unhappily married.
He was a thin red haired man always cleanly shaven, with hard lines on his face, not the kinds that made him old, but complimented his looks. But there was a kind of perverted envy or curiousity about him.
I was twenty years old, as a man was I taking advantage of my life in the city, in short yes. that year was one of the most relaxed lucky years of my life, I had had atleast two girlfriends, a few flings and a good deal of upgrade in self esteem. I´d go in early and check with our boss Keith and my superviser Darren what we would be working on during on the day.
Keith and Darren would make jokes and watch porn. Darren was thirty five, Keith a year or two older. Both men gave me the feeling there would be no evolution, that I was destined to be a grubby minded unhappily married man or single father from some marriage that would fall apart for that exact reason, that it wasn´t possible to evolve. Most women not all but most want men who develop themselves for the future. 
I´d think of Keith and Darren as states in time just waiting for me in the future.
Both men admired me, I could fix a lawn mower, use a high powered weedeater with a steel blade, name just about all the plants in a garden, I could create the garden.
Nothing came naturally to me except writing and gardening.
In the year I was there, keith never expressed anger toward me. He´d always be cracking jokes so he could enjoy his own laughter. I used to think his laugh was like a conversation. It said "Look how funny this right here is, you should be laughing too, you might miss out." and so most of us laughed too, except lil Bill our small half Japanese Half Maori Mormon.
When Little Bill was away Keith and Darren would crack jokes at his expence.
It´s one thing for religious people to push their strange and insane views on others, it´s another to blame the ills and inconsistencies of religion on one young poorly educated Mormon.
My view of God was personal, God had me I had God and we were okay. I could delve but it wouldn´t do any good.
Long story, short Keith was unhappily married man, who´d watch porn all day, complain about the fact he wasn´t single and crack jokes all day. There was more to him, I knew it. But New Zealand men
didn´t really share themselves.