The path away from yourself

 If I could not know myself
Everything a reaction of my past
A trauma hammer

If I didn´t know my own desires
That I got close to wanting things
That would destroy my very life

If I didn´t understand myself
The grief at bad decisions
The cliffs I´d fall from

The world an imposing mystery
Unreadable and scornful
Unreasonable and harsh

No hand hold
To lift myself closer to the summiit
Each fall´s concussion...

dumbfounding the journey