Rising and falling unknown me

 Part of me is not me
Part of me is foreign
Unknown to me
Unknown to the world

The outside tinkering away
Mostly unnoticed
Inconvenient then forgotten
virtuous but clumsy

Part of me is not here anymore
A part that clung to the world as I'd fall off it
Into the oxygenless space
Only to burn back into the atmosphere

and fill the shoddy expression
Of taking off
Or the sky  is the limit
Part of me would burn off descending

Part of me might bail on the ascension
Would they be parts I recognize
Or strangers hanging on over the years
Only getting exposed when things got tough

Abandoning me like friends and family
That abandoned me and that I abandoned
Unknown to me now
Making no conclusions about them

struggling to make conclusion about myself