Like a smile I´m after...

I´m searching for an answer to my question.
It´s about meaning, I´m trying to get some help with my hot neglect.
How´d I leave myself, my heart starved like a powerline crow, with it´s foot stuck staring at the food below.
You were there helping like a person worth having, and when I turned to face you, you didn´t leave.
And I´m just about to lose most of what I really believe in.
You´re not a mirage, once I bathed in your laughter.
You´re there fantastic like a smile I´m after.